Homesong

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And Now This

I have a bit of free time.

Free time has been in short supply for the last 10 days. And the nature of this job means that, in addition to the lack of time alone, I have to put aside my own decision making processes, my own autonomy, and simply be the help that somebody else needs, when they need it. It’s hard to explain, but it’s a different dynamic to most other kind of jobs.

But for now I’m free, my own boss, and I must decide what to do.

A different kind of problem.

The truth is though, that I was, I have been, I am, at liberty the whole time. It really is a mentality of seeing the present reality and accepting it for what it is. Being “free”, or seeming to be free, is not the issue.

Rather, it is a case of…

This is my present experience.

And Now This.