Sunday Doubting

I’m experiencing a little bit of Sunday Doubting.

And like all doubters who really want to believe the thing they are doubting, I often look for reassurances. Something to bolster my belief.

At this particular moment I’m doubting (not for the first time) that there is path to follow, or a role I am capable of playing, in regards to being a part of more Homesongs happening in homes.

Do I need to tell you this, considering the fact that I’m theoretically talking to people who I’m trying to encourage to be part of making the Homesong idea come to life.

Well, yes I do. I come from a religious background and, in retrospect, the most dangerous part of my experience was the kind of infallible, super-christian status given to the “leader of the flock”, or whatever they might be termed. And in fact the leaders I actually respected the most during those times, were the ones who managed to come out a little from behind that mirage.

So, yes, I would rather this blog came from an honest place.

And I’m not unhappy. Quite the opposite really. But I’m still trying to work out each “next step” as I go.

I’m trying to keep the faith, without hiding from the truth.

Ultimately I don’t believe it is possible to build anything worthwhile without that kind of honesty.